Captive of the Golden One

They cannot see their way
The light is not of day
The flashes are for the flood
Heralding, steeped with mud

The shell is closed round me
I cannot shake it loose
I will not try to flee
For the world outside's a noose

My heart is closed for fear
What I want I cannot find
Even when you draw so near
I turn you out from my mind

It's not a fault of yours
I am just like this way
You knock on all my doors
But my thought is far away

Sometime I wish you'd crack me
And set me oh so free
But in this mount of madness
I hope you never find me

For though I'm here and breathing
She's always far away
And though I'm here and breathing
She lives in another day

So don't come a-calling
For the snow has washed me down
And I no longer wander through these halls
And I rest in the Gold One's mound.

This is not about anybody in particular, before you get too excited. It began as such, but seems the words have gotten away from me....